A little story of myself

Many friends have frequently asked me this question, including my blogger friend A True Malaysian, who posted the question today under ‘about myself”, why did i choose to come back when I could have stayed back in Singapore after I graduated with MBBS from the University of Singapore.

My graduating class of 1977 in the Faculty of Medicine University of Singapore had 84 Malaysians, including 6 from my high school, Chung Ling High School of Penang. Out of these 84, only less than 10 came back to Malaysia. The rest are now spread all over the world, in Singapore mainly, some in UK, Australia, US, and New Zealand. Most became very prominent doctors in the land they chose to settle down.

University of Singapore medical faculty was rated then, as is now, as one of the 2 top medical schools in Asia, the other one being University of HOng Kong. Graduates were welcome all over the world.

I chose then to come back, even though i was on Asean Scholarship (with no bonds luckily),  as all along I consider it a duty to serve my own homeland. I was one of those patriotic ‘idiots’, so to speak. But Alas, ideals were not entertained in Malaysia. I was posted to District hospitals (where calls were long and very frequent, and weekend calls lasted from Saturday morning to Monday afternoon, more than 56 hours at one go),   to postings that nobody wanted and finally landed in IMR (Institute of Medical Research) in Kumpur Lumpur, at that time very short of doctors and no doctors would want to volunteer for the postings as this was supposed to be a research posting, where you do not see much patients, but most of the time were spent looking into the microscope.. I studied on my own and passed the MRCP part one . Passing part 2 then would enable one to be qualified to be a specialist, but to do part 2, you need to spend time in a medical unit for a certain time period.

So I applied to University Hospital for a traineeship in medicine and was accepted, but I could not go because Ministry of Health said they would not release me since they were short of doctors. I had no choice at all, since I had no strings or cables, and I never believed even in those days to bribe my way out. So while UH wanted me and would have enabled me to do a Part 2 and became a consultant physician, the Ministry of Health said, you, stay put, you belonged to us (since iwas still under the 3 year compulsory postings).. and we would not give you the necessary training, because we had to help people of a certain ethnic origin first.

Even then, in the late 70s, I had a taste of what Malaysian bureaucracy is like. You need to be somebody, or with some strings (cables are better), or use money to get what you want. The issue of race was beginning to take shape then, with doctors from a certain ethnic group given choice postings and big hospitals, local graduates or those from UK/Australia to second choice postings, and people like us from Singapore were given postings that nobody would prefer . It was a subtle form of bureaucrats practising certain form of favouritism.

I quit in disgust after 3 years of compulsory postings and started my own clinic. Later, I did a Master of medicine course in Occupation Medicine from Western Australia on my own ( a 2 year course). I am glad to say that my master’s dissertation was given distinction and was listed in the university readers as teaching materials. I could have taken up a post as a lecturer in occupational medicine in AUstralia, but I chose to stay in Malaysia  here.

Do i regret coming home? Those of my classmates that did not come back all got good training in Singapore without any discrimination. But I do not regret coming back since this is my country. I have the same right as everybody else. I like the food here. I like the casual atmosphere here. I like the life style that I grew up with. I enjoy my friends here. Now that I have a blog, I enjoy talking to all my friends here in the blogs, even if we do not see eye to eye.

All of us Malaysians  have the same rights here, but our rights were hijacked by certain politicians who use race card to perpetuate their hold onto power and it is up to us to get it back. A fair and equal society for all where the rich will help the poor, those with abundance will help those with nothing.

So I have no regret coming home. My only regret is seeing the country going from a nation of excellence into a country of mediocrity,  seeing the polarisation of people getting more and more acute, seeing that the great institution of the country going down the drains, seeing that a lot of talents being wasted because they could not get the training they wanted locally and they could not afford the high cost of overseas education, seeing that  public funds which could be used to help the needy being  diverted into private coffers.

And i do intend to speak out, since we are the intellingentia and we have the responsibility to speak out for the people that could not voice out as freely as us , no matter how small my voice is… until I drop dead, and I have prepared a burial plot in NIlai for that purpose..


69 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Nick
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 12:43:37

    Dr. Hsu, thank you for sharing a bit of your life story. You are a worthy warrior for good in this world. Keep on writing what you believe in and soon it will rub off enough people. Your early experience being posted to rural areas must have been tough. Anyway, you are a sqare peg in a round hole (sounds like what your advice to Gerakan to quit BN, eh?). You are too smart for government service. You probably frightened your superiors as you knew more than them Ha ha ha. No wonder, they had to “slow” you down by posting you to god-forsaken places where your talents and presence could be hidden from top bureaucrats. I also had an overseas education and actually stayed and worked in the UK several years. But I will not forsake my country. Like you, I have chosen to settle and live here, for good or bad, and finally when He calls me home, I have informed my wife that my ashes should be scattered around my house garden as I can’t afford a burial plot in Nirvana, Nilai.


  2. A true Malaysian
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 13:04:56

    Dr. Hsu, thanks for sharing your very ‘touching’ story.

    No wonder our homeland is short of doctors, 84 Malaysians studied in NUS and yet only less than 10 chose to come back.

    Very sad in fact that some of us are actually ‘victim’ in our own homeland……I hope Anwar will read your this posting and do the necessary when come to power.

    Again, thanks for sharing.


  3. Dr Hsu
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 13:22:12

    Nic k and A True Malaysian, you are welcome to read my true story.

    But experience makes us grow. I am what i am because of all these experiences.

    I was bitter durig my younger days especially when University Hospital (under the Ministry of Education) offered me a trainship position, but Minsitry of Health refused to release me. But i kind of thank those who refused to let me go for my training, because it enabled me to see and feel the unfairness that was in the country. And because of that, I learned the importance of being fair to all my children and my friends..And i think the country cannot go any other way but to establish a fair and equitable society…


  4. Dr Hsu
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 13:29:30

    A True malaysian, there are at least 4000 thousand Malaysian doctors overseas , many of them world class physicians, and many of them are in the forefront of medicine. But they are using their skills to treat people who are not Malaysains, and some Malaysian Ministers, top officials, and their families are going overseas to get treatment from them… what an irony…


  5. mee
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 13:39:01

    Dear Dr. Hsu,

    I read your blog now and then. For me, I am in my 40s. I have gone through the same frustration in civil service although now I am getting ‘better deal’ after the tsunami election. I hope all of us will get the fairer deal regardless race, religion or creed in future.

    Malaysia is my home. We are in our home and we do share the equal right. Do we? I hope one day all of us will not be classify under religions,race, bumi or non bumi. All of us are Malaysian.


  6. Dr Hsu
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 13:53:02

    mee, hopefully that day will come..And I believe that day will come.. it is only a matter of time …


  7. A true Malaysian
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 14:54:50

    Dr. Hsu,

    If we look deeper into these discriminatory practices, the ones who fall victim are not just the lesser favoured people, those ‘blue eye’ boys and girls also become victim of these practices.

    I used to accompany my parents to general hospital to seek treatment and came across a Malay nenek confessed to me that she has no confidence in seeking treatment by a doctor of her own race.

    So, this experience shown that the discriminatory practices somehow ‘back fire’ to their favoured race though in actual fact, many of them are good and qualified doctors. I myself has experience consulting these doctors, and I can testify that they are compassionate and kind hearted.

    Even Jeff Ooi has confidence on one of these doctors http://www.jeffooi.com/2008/07/jeff_sparrow_ver301.php


  8. anomie
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 15:10:39

    I cried the day when I left for Auckland for my engineering course.

    I cried because I knew deep in my heart how much my mother & my other brothers/sisters had to sacrificed for me to take up this course in a foreign land.

    Even though UoA had offered scholarship but it’s not enough. I’ve to scrap through the duration of the course to earned what my family had put upon me to achieved. My country, Malaysia, had treated me as an unwanted child even though my academic results shined through ‘all those’ that got financial helps from the govt.

    That’s some 20+ yrs ago! & yet I’m still in Malaysia! Yes, I came back! Just to prove to those bigots that I survive WITHOUT any pittances from them. & I’ve made my life with two children,whom I always reminded that if U have talents & perseverance, the world will welcome U.

    So to those in the same dilemma now, dont despair.


  9. desmond
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 16:18:34

    I really do admire Dr Hsu and the other commentators and their families, who have sacrificed much for this so far ungrateful country.

    The saddest part is that the current discrimination will not go away anytime soon. As a matter a fact, I believe that is is this government’s unstated wish that all its brilliant non bumis get out of the country, so that they will not post a threat to their dominance.

    So it is only with such a very determined and persistent group of non- bumis intellingetia, with some help from enlightened bumis, to fight this fight will there be a day of a true Malaysia.But it is going to be a very very long fight.

    For when we give up this fight, this country will end up as another banana country, if it is not half there already.


  10. novice101
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 17:11:03

    Your comments on the Malaysian situation are spot-on. It is certainly a sad commentary of our life style. The sorry state of affairs all came about because of the self-serving politicians. Keep the flame of awareness burning as things cannot last forever.


  11. monsterball
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 17:46:18

    After reading your life story…you are one hell of a Malaysian that is true and loyal to the country.
    Personally..I always feel homesick..when ever I go overseas.Few opportunities to get rich..offered to me….I turned it down..because I feel my family is better off in Malaysia than elsewhere.
    I heard so many Malaysian Chinese and Indians…all feeling unfairly treated..working for the government.
    In that way…I am blessed…never depended on the government at all.
    I have so many teachers friends….all saying…how frustrated they are….yet totally helpless.
    They taught….until retiring day……for the sake of their children.
    They saved and slot…to see their children become doctors…engineers…lawyers…auditors…all with degrees…no help from government.
    And situation is getting worst and worst now…favouring only Malays.
    That’s how UMNO have some of their loyal membe5rs..doing nothing…makan gaji buta…..ion and on and on.
    At least you have booked a plasc in Nilai…to enjoy your second life.
    I join Nick…to be cremated and be done with it.
    Doc…I am happy to have met you and am proud to be your friend.


  12. petestop
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 18:47:24

    Dr Hsu… superb write up on your background and a summary of what went wrong with Malaysia.

    It is not just in medical sector, but I’m sure many Malaysian will have stories to tell.

    Out of 84, only 10 came back…. what a waste of our talented people.


  13. Dr Hsu
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 18:59:23

    monsterball, i am glad to have met you and A True Malaysian, two true malaysians. I am also glad to have befriended all the commentators that I have not met. But even if we have not met, I am considering all as my freinds, even those with views opposing mine.. and even those who criticised me. By virtual of debating in this blog, we are already friends, since writing to each other is just like talking to each others. In fact, we know each others’ inner thoughts and beliefs. Even the use of pseudonym would not diminish this… when one writes, you can sense his or her inner thoughts and beliefs.

    All men are brothers….. that is what i really believe in…


  14. Peter Yong
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 20:07:09

    Yes, you are indeed one of a true Malaysian and I respect your character. I like reading your blog and share it with other Malaysians.


  15. monsterball
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 20:21:27

    Nick! The rich get richer…if that person.. is as smart as Doc.
    Here is why!
    He buys 5 blocks of Nalai land dead man’s land…at RM8K per plot….and 15 years from now…he can sell each plot at .at least RM50K!!
    Sooooo..RM40K investments..brings RM 400K.
    Doc..will keep laughing to the bank…from his clinic and Nilai’s dead man’s plot seller….hahahahahahaha
    He is going to reply..he will be dead by 15 years.
    Don’t listen to that humble talk.
    I met him! He is as strong as an ox and he looks much much more younger than his age.
    I look 10 years older than my age….poor me!
    I have a strange feeling….for the sake of the country…..he will be a active politician…whether he likes it or not..and Justin Choo can carry his briefcase….and not Anwar’s….hahahahahaha


  16. monsterball
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 20:27:56

    I mean RM40K …sold for RK400k…at RM80k per plot………not RM5OK!!’
    Got to correct this…before “true malaysian” writer start laughing at my low class maths.
    He now addresses me as “MR.Monsterball” He is dead serious….to wait chance…….hentam me…hahahahahaha


  17. monsterball
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 20:48:19

    Robin….DOC’S SON
    Bat Girl…Doc’s “Akang Datang” anak. Bulum buat!! Battery nak charge butul btutul!!
    Police High Commissioner….romerz
    2..Two Face…True Malaysian
    3..Penguin…Justin Choo
    5..Freeze…Anak Malaysia
    6..Cat Woman…wp
    The 7 must die….before Doc is finished with us.


  18. Justin Choo
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 21:14:57

    Monsterball is going to kick me again if I ask him who is this Penguin. I know the penguin water bottle my daughter bought from Ikea for my granddaughter which I’ve got to fill up and wash each day. I am quite sure Monsterball does not mean that. I think no chance to even carry Dr’s bag!!

    But never mind. Glad that I found Dr’s blog. When I first read it I immediately sensed a very special aura around him. As I wrote earlier, his simple “header message” delivers a loud punch like that of Muhammed Ali! I went through his various sections shown on top of the header, and wow! such an intelligent and versatile personality. The most oustanding traits of Dr Hsu is his wisdom and patience and humility. It’s awesome. I know the good Dr is above praise and blame; but I just must express my respect for this unassuming intellectual.

    And with balls like Monsterball to kick up a storm, what better place to be than to read the good dr’s blog; and once in while to pump air into monsterball so that he is energized to start all over again!! It is indeed a pleasure to relax with Romerz, reflect with Novice101, learn from True Malaysian, and kick balls with Monsterball!!

    Thank you Dr Hsu for giving us space to relax and argue and laugh at oursleves.


  19. pohwatchdog
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 21:21:05

    Malaysia is our home as Malay proverb says “hujan emas di negeri lain, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik di negeri sendiri”
    We have different opinion on how to have a fair and just society. What is wrong need to be correct? As long as we have our conscience, we will live a happy life.

    We need to change things that is not right with the changes in JPA scholarship, merit in civil service promotion, building more vernacular schools in city, creating job opportunity and etc. We all love Malaysia because no other place is like Malaysia


  20. monsterball
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 21:30:27

    I repeat. .Penguin is Justin Choo…useless short..cunning crook.
    Not like Joker{monsterball}….smart…with so many followers….such as….monk…deffodils…aadya…..muda….folo4….yh…jeff…..peteshop.
    Few more like Zubli Zainordin…ko yem Binjai..overseas Malaysian and chancey gardener are applying as members.
    All hate pohwatchdog….darwil….patek 1472….but life is dull….without some idiots.
    This blog is short of few Indians. Maybe feeling sad..5 Brothers are under ISA….understood ..and we are all with you too[if you are reading!}…praying for them.
    The roll call is complete…I hope……..HAHAHAhahaHAHAHA


  21. monsterball
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 21:32:57

    Why I wrote…
    “peteshop”…came out pets?
    Sorry pall!!


  22. monsterball
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 21:49:09

    That Penguin said…”relax with romerz, reflect with Novice 101′ learn from True Malaysian..bla bla bla”
    I guess he and mahathir..abang/adek….can forget easily.
    He praised me three times…Rose Chan song..Lim Cheng Poh “copyrights” writer……..coming …merdeka boycott!!
    All forgotten!!!
    Yes…I hope Batman kill this Penguin…….fast!!
    He wants to ambil bodek “3 Adbuls”… and offend monsterball???


  23. Hoyohoyo
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 22:17:01

    Hi Dr Hsu,

    Thanks for your story… I’m perhaps going to be another patriotic IDIOTS like you…

    I’m studying in Singapore, I’ve a 3-year-working-bond to serve, which easily translate into an at least 5 years more in Singapore for me… and I wish to finish my PhD somewhere else, before I call for a return to Malaysia… I really hope by that time, I really have the courage to go back…

    Everyone has been saying how great the Singapore is… but really, maybe I’m just another patriotic IDIOT… There’s one part of me, so keen to go back to my home… well I’m ecologist rather than, a doctor like you… 😉

    And ever since my first ever trip back home to vote, I just found myself so glued to the current political issues, together with lots and lots of other crisis that my home country is suffering… Which sometimes make me feel like pointing my finger to the Gods, and say… Do something can you? Don’t you see the people are suffering? (as an ecologist, the animals and plants as well… :P)

    But I know, when I point out my index finger, 4 another fingers of mine are pointing myself… asking the same question… I hope I really can do something… even if it is just a petty pathetic little thing…

    Kind of remind me one great teacher I’ve ever had, once said… 立大志, 做小事…


  24. A true Malaysian
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 22:38:39

    Haha, this is the humour side of monsterball. To tell you the truth, I don’t even look at the figures, so you are safe to get hantam from me. I have enough figures to take care with.

    Well, in a way, I am blessed to get to know you and Dr. Hsu…as what Dr. Hsu believes, all men are brothers.


  25. Dr Hsu
    Aug 04, 2008 @ 23:15:53

    Peter Yong, Justin, I am not worthy of the praise. Monsterball has met me, he knows I am just an very ordinary person, a small man but trying to add the little voice to this world.

    What monster and True Malaysian has done in the various blogs are more than what I do here. All of us have a little part to do. VOice out , no matter how soft is our voice. Together it will be a torrent.


  26. romerz
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 00:20:41

    I’ve not watched the ‘Dark Knight’ yet so could someone please tell me if the Police High Commissioner is a good guy or a bad guy or a ‘you know who’ stooge like one we hear so much about.

    By the way, I’ve met Justin and I don’t think he is a useless cunning crook. He is just a normal Malaysian (like most of us) who has an interest and curiosity about the developments currently ongoing.

    monsterball, please note that I’m not trying to cross you but just setting the record straight.

    I hope it was all said in jest.


  27. monsterball
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 00:58:19

    Romerz ..Police High Commissioner is Batman’s trusted friend…in all Batman movies.
    And Penguin is a cunning crook…so is Justin. The Joker…yours trully…need to die first.
    Doc said I will live to more than ..100 years.
    I chosed him to be Batman…to live forever….to suffer forever…and his piece of dead man’s land…at Nilai..forever unused…..hahahahahahaha


  28. romerz
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 01:23:32

    Thanks monsterball, at least I’ll sleep better tonight. Hahahaha.

    I was supposed to have seen the movie on last Wednesday but my wife came back late from work and by the time we went to the cinema, only the front 2 rows were left.

    I’ll definitely try to catch the movie this week. I heard Keith Ledger put in a “monster” of a performance for the Joker. Hahahaha


  29. jamesloh
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 10:06:14

    am impressed !


  30. monsterball
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 10:43:00

    So are all here……jamesloh.
    I hope we are impressed by the same thing..you are impressed.
    Do you like guessing games….jamesloh?


  31. monsterball
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 11:13:11

    hi Doc..Just to let you know…I have been asking readers from all the blogs I go..to visit and read your comments…since tge day….I feel ….you are special…which you are.
    Now you owe me lunch or dinner….hahahahahahaha


  32. Nick
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 11:57:41

    Romerz, you need to know this character “Two-Face” in the movie. He goes by the name of Harvey Dent, the District Attorney of Gotham city. The actor is Aaron Eckhart. There is a line which goes like this: “Everyone wants to do good, but if you live long enough eventually you become a villian.” How true. The DA was a good guy at the beginning, a kind of legit vigilante going after all the tough mobsters but eventually the Joker got to him and disfigured him. Whereupon, his ugly side comes out and with his trademark “toss of a coin”, his victims fate was decided. This movie is the BEST movie for 2008 and I bet it will sweep most of the oscars. I still can’t get enough, I will probably watch it again at sometime. The plot is brilliant. But remember, it is an adult movie and very very long something like 2 1/2 hour. Enjoy…


  33. Patrick
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 13:18:38

    Dr Hsu, Yes, you did the right thing i.e. to choose to stay in the land where you were born and have as much rights as others. I was having lunch with a Canadian last weekend. He told me that he cannot understand why the Chinese in M’sia can still tolerate the life here with all the discrimination, corruption and wastages of the present government. My answer to him was simple. You could choose to run away or choose to stay back to play your roles to change the government throught the legal means. Yes, this will take times but at the end of the day, it will be worth it. We may not be around to enjoy this change but when it comes, all our children including all the raayat of M’sia will enjoy this. So, we should not just give up without a fight….


  34. Dr Hsu
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 13:25:01

    monsterball, thanks. I like friends, even if just sitting and listening.So we can meet up again and let me listen to your wisdom… treat on me this time, but not this week.

    You have met me, I am nothing special. Just a normal human, same as 6 billions other in this planet of ours.


  35. monsterball
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 15:42:38

    Romerz..What Nick is telling you….is DA..which I gave the role to “True Malaysia”. He never thank me yet..as he likes does not fancy Batman history.
    All he is interested is 36..24..36…..and slight variations.
    Being an Account based man..he has to master the arts on figures….hahahahahaha
    I said you are like the Commissioner of Police..a real simple non corrupted…down to earth man….the only man…trusted by Batman…besides his butler.
    Actually I should be Batman’s butler….wise and always treat Batman….like a son.
    When Police Commissioner needs Batman..he will flash out a huge “bat ” sign to the sky….and walla…Batman comes..he tells him the activities of crooks…and Batman go …doing his job…he knows best..to entertain us for more than 70 years…never grow one day older.
    Also Batman is 6ft 3″…Doc is also same height..or a little shorter.
    What a co-incident!! Both fights for justices with their lives.


  36. old fart
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 17:18:26

    Dr Hsu, congratulations on a very informative and well-written blog. My family and I love and read your blog most times to find out the going-ons of our formal country, Malaysia. Never trusted the news dished out by the MSM whether in English or Chinese, as we know they are all under the control of the government propaganda machinery. As for me, I was born in KL in the mid fifties and grew up in the sixties and seventies, a time which you correctly described as the issue of race was beginning to take shape. Went through the 1969 May 13 issue when I was only fourteen and vividly remembered carrying a stick of some sort as instructed by some of our elder relatives, for whatever reason I couldn’t quite understand then.
    After having finished high school, and feeling discontent with the unjust racial discrimination and lack of opportunities for higher learning, we migrated to Australia in the late seventies. Decided to take up the citizenship, after having lived there for almost thirty years, of a country that has treated us fair and equal. Left for a period of time to live in Hong Kong and Shanghai, having been headhunted to head a multi-national design discipline for Asia Pacific. Yes, there are indeed a lot of ex-Malaysians working in top positions of major companies all over the world. Serious brain-drain indeed! We still enjoy coming back to this beautiful land where we were born and raised because of its food, relax life-style, mostly kind people especially among the Malays, the lovely beaches, and so on. But we will never come back to live because of the utter dislike for what the present government has been dishing out to the RAKYAT!


  37. monsterball
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 17:30:27

    Just watch..next year..Two Face will be teaming up with the Riddler..which I suspect will be…Eddie Murphy..or someone..that can out shined Jim Carey.
    Then last half hour….introducing….poison ivy…or Cat Woman.
    I always forgot Poison Ivy!!
    Poison Ivy…must be revealed by Doc.
    Don’t tell me…handsome Doc…so goody goody..meet one girl..got married….IMPOSSIBLE!!
    So…wait for Doc…next message and titled… “Now..little more about my life…my girlfriends!”
    If Justin comes… carcau carcau….I will tombok him ..left and right!!


  38. folo4
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 21:41:20

    The way I see it, you lost ambition, and decided to come home like a sane man would do.

    It’s nice, to go to a place where you were born. It is one of the defining characteristics of mankind.

    Sure, you’re obviously getting the low end of everything here, but in the end, you could be happy and still don’t know why.

    That, is the fantastic power of living on familiar grounds.

    We may endure hell, we may endure shame, we may lose alot, but since it is our home, we will Endure till our last breath.

    Ew, that sounded like a fanatic would live on.


  39. monsterball
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 21:54:41

    Are we changing from Batman to” life after death.”…stuffs?
    This is Justin Choo’s pet subject.
    I will start of…asking folo4..where is hell..or heaven?
    Describe it…and give 4 witnesses….{learning this from Anwar!!}……hahahahahahaha


  40. Muda
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 22:15:20

    Dear Dr.Hsu ,

    Hujan emas dinegeri orang , hujan batu dinegeri sendiri , lebih baik dinegeri sendiri .

    For your info dear Dr.Hsu , only certain malay officers and professionals who have cables or favourites of the bosses who are UMNO members are given preferential treatment .

    I know for a fact because I’m one of the majority malay professionals who had served the civil service and had seen junior officers wet behind the years got promoted until JUSA and become staff officers .

    I and quite a number of my colleagues was sideline many a times because we refused to kowtow to rediculous directions and kowtims with our ‘bosses’ friends to close our eyes to a lot of things .

    Why do I stay despite all these nonsense and bull going on ?

    At least in my own way ,I’ve stood my ground and managed to prevent certain things from going on .

    After a hard days work , it gave me pleasure to see malays , chinese , indians etc are not treated separately but as malaysians .

    I’ve been sidelined for promotions , harrassed and given unfavorable remarks by my superiors , transferred on quick notice but all those are worthwile seeing malaysians of all races leaving my place of work with a satisfied look knowing that we do care and fairplay is still alive .

    I did received certain offers from outside but I love my country and my malay , chinese ,indians , sikhs ,etc friends . And I will do it all over again if I’m given a chance to start again .

    Thank you for being a MALAYSIAN Dr.Hsu !

    During my early years , my scholarship was taken away and given to some Datuk’s children but by GOD”s grace I managed to pursue my ambition .
    The Datuk’s son failed miserably and was kicked out after the first sem !


  41. Dr Hsu
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 22:36:29

    Muda, from your story, it is clear that race iisue is being made use of by the top people for their and their cronies benefits.

    That is why we should really do away with race based politics, and instead adopt a politics to creat a fair society to all.

    All races, including Malays, Chinese and Indians will benefit.


  42. A true Malaysian
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 22:42:30


    Mahathir once said Malaysia ‘do’ practise meritocracy among Malays.

    From what you share with us, it seems no meritocracy is being practised at all.

    Irene Fernendez appeal case was put off again today. Actual reason must be ‘no meritocracy’ instead of computer virus as claimed.


  43. Muda
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 22:45:35

    Dear Dr.Hsu ,

    You are right 100% there . There’s a chinese saying that I picked up ” Theen yau ngan .”

    And this is what I believe
    Women Malaisiaa ren !

    I’m sorry but my mandarin is quite bad though I’ve picked up mandarin sometime ago !
    My spoken hokkien and kongfu is just enough to get thru’ with the people who came before me !

    Kam siah Doc !


  44. Justin Choo
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 22:58:05

    I took my family to settle in a foreign country, but after 3 years, came back and happy to smell familiar air again.


  45. yh
    Aug 05, 2008 @ 23:59:03

    wonder why you have not a honorifc before your surname?
    dr, you have my utmost respect.


  46. monsterball
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 00:14:24

    There…I told you…majority Muslims are Malaysians more than anything else.
    UMNO has always been the culprit.
    They know..the game they play…majority muslims and other races will support..because greed and selfishness are two weak points.f ordinary humans.
    Muda is not ordinary….and millions muslims like him…are beginning to see the real devilish… UMNO leaders.
    The problem is….UMNO do not know …when to stop.
    Mahathir is the biggest devil in UMNO.
    So nice to read Muda’s message.
    So now…do we play the middle game…or all against UMNO and vote them out…no matter how many nice things they may do…to try win our votes again.
    And please…let Anwar at least two terms…to correct all the 52 years wrongs.
    It is not an easy task.
    So lets be serious…and don’t give him any problems…like pohwat6chdog is doing.
    Don’t fool around w8ith your children’s futures.


  47. romerz
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 00:21:42

    I’ve been particularly silent in this posting since I can’t claim to have experienced or endured what most of you went through but I was moved by Muda’s comments that I’m compelled to write.

    I remember a time when I was in school (70s) and my gang of close friends comprised all the 3 major races. We had so much fun together, tackling girls, illegally smoking without our parent’s knowledge, lending each other courage when challenged by rival schools, etc.

    Never once was it about race or religion, from the girls we tackled or the rivals we confronted.

    All that changed when we started working. Somehow when we lost the schoolboy innocence and adapted to the reality of working life, the issue of race or religion crept into our friendship until it became so uncomfortable.

    Imagine the shock we felt when despite our color blindness, we suddenly realized Malaysia was not about working hard or being outstanding, it was about which race or religion you belong to.

    Nevertheless we still remained as good friends despite the shock. Unfortunately our Malay and Muslims friends started to object to criticisms about the ruling elite and eventually we drifted apart.

    Today, of my original gang, only the Chinese and Indians remain. Even though we still keep in contact with our Malay ‘brothers’, it is no longer the same. We are watchful of what we have to say to each other.

    Such a shame when 17 color blind school boy friends, who would have bled for each other, are separated today by selfish people with selfish objectives.

    I don’t remember where I said this but Malaysia need not be like this. It was never intended to be like this!

    Ps. I won’t go into details, but I could have left a long time ago but I chose to stay. My thinking is that unless we stay and challenge those who would divide us, small as it may be, those who have no choice but to stay would have a bigger ‘fight’ on their hands.

    In a way, this is directed at some of my friends who fled, who had they stayed, could have made significant contributions to civil society.


  48. monsterball
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 00:59:56

    I am more fortunate. I mixed with Muslims..all my life..and it is the muslims…that I find easy to do business with…not fussy and calculative…like the Chinese. Not oly that..Chinese are very ‘clandish”..will support same clan. So Chinese are really the racialists.
    And strange as it may seem……most are from Chinese schools.
    Ask any retail shops…and they will say….their best customers are the muslims.
    Yes…majority do practice their religion faithfully.
    Chinese is money crazy…but will work hard for the money.
    Malays are money crazy…but UMNO teach them to relax ..listen to them….vote for them..and money will fall from UMNO kitty bank…to save them all.
    Indians are not so crazy for money….that’s why Samy Vellu can fool them for so long.
    Now..they are also crazy for money…no choice….children need to keep up with other friends of different races.
    Indians woke up….and found Samy Vellu stole their money in Maika and keep lying tom them. and bravest
    And when Indians wake up..they are the smartest Malaysians….right now.


  49. Anak Malaysia
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 03:25:21

    Dr. Hsu,

    Regarding your burial plot…. Heaven’s can wait! You’ve got a role to be played. Make sure GERAKAN have the courage to face the demon within itself and to fight for it’s ideals….

    I dont think that GERAKAN has gone beyond all boundaries for redemptions. Of all the BN leaders, only Dr. Koh Tsu Koon has the courage to admit defeat with grace. Others are deeply embedded in their usual self defiance!

    So until GERAKAN find it’s “monster” balls again, definitely heaven’s can wait…

    ps; hehee… monsterball, I need to borrow your name a little bit for the blunt, straight to the point and no nonsense approach.


  50. Anak Malaysia
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 04:37:05


    I’ve also got some of personal experience to be shared. I still remember the story on a friend of mine who happened to come from the family of the “prevelege one” as his father is someone in the corporate world who is connected to UMNO. He is applying for a private scholarships from one of the prominent corporate company. In order to qualify for the scholarships, one has to go through a series of internal exams conducted by them. I’m one of them. Unfortunately, I dont made it, but my friend did…

    Later on, another friend of mine told me a story. This guy has brag or “terlepas cakap” that he actually have got all the question papers complete with answers two days before the exam. Immediately, I feel cheated and betrayed. I dont mind of not getting the scholarships based on equal footings, but all of this things makes me feel handicapped!. That is the first time in my life where i was forced to realize on the stark reality of “special previleges”. Unfortunately, this are only the beginning…

    I hope that all of you non-malay or non-bumi have realized by now that we are not so difference after all. All of these bullshits about “malay preveleges” have got nothing to do with us, the common malay. It’s just an excuse to further polarized us all, to divide us all, make us prejudice in our views, make us distrust each other, make us see each other with contempts so that the UMNO elites and it’s own leagues of cronies can fully capitalize it for their own benefits.

    There are a lot more of us common malays out there and that’s why we can easily relates to the frustration of others at being marginalized. That’s why we can just laugh it if off at any reference made to it. hahaha….


  51. Anak Malaysia
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 05:01:02

    Dr. Hsu,

    You are absolutely right in saying that:

    “All of us Malaysians have the same rights here, but our rights were hijacked by certain politicians who use race card to perpetuate their hold onto power and it is up to us to get it back. A fair and equal society for all where the rich will help the poor, those with abundance will help those with nothing.”

    My only hope is that more and more Malaysian will come to their senses to realize this ultimate truth. Those politicians will sell their soul to the highest bidder or the Devil himself for their own selfish personal interest. Just like what UMNO did to malays, or what MIC did to Indians…

    I can’t said the same for the chinese as they are much smarter in politics. To borrow the correctly used phrase by monsterball, they are very much calculative. They will always vote BN with the exception that they will used DAP as a “threat” to the government to get exactly what they want. But as calculative as they are, they forget on the fundamentals. To use their common sense where the economies of the country are concerned.

    With transperancy, honesty, integrity and good governence the economy will prosper. With secrecy, dishonest, no integrity and bad governence, the economy will suffers. All of these things are just waiting for the bubble to explode. What else to be expected? It is all common sense. We’ve got all the example we would ever needed from our nearest neighbour, Singapore.

    If only common sense would prevails….


  52. monsterball
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 10:08:02

    Anak Malaysia…You can borrow my monsterball whenever you like.
    If I have two monster balls…Doc will need to take asprins everyday..thinking how to handle two balls..when one is already so huge and troublesome.
    Actually the good monster ball killed the bad monster ball…..hahahahahaha
    This is part and parcel of life cycle….one needs to go through…to be a wise man……hahahahahaha
    If I did not kill one bad ball…I may end up with more divorces…….hahahahahaha
    Guys like true malaysia need to be less calculative…made some mistakes ..like 36 24..36…maybe 35..24…24. No harm done. Why be so accurate on figures?…and Justin…….need to be my dog….to be more enlightened…….hahahahahaha
    All he knows…..is quoting Buddha’s teaching so well….even explaining every teaching.
    Such are the signs of one..aiming a place in paradise…which I doubt he knows where it is…..or can prove to me…with 4 witnesses…there is such a place….as Paradise………hahahahahahaha
    He ignored answering me…does he know Cynthia Lim…Cheng Poh’s lovely daughter.
    Rumors has it… he tried to tackle…..cannot get….so resigned.
    Doc..keep reading..reading and reading….laughing…and if not careful……may poke needle to patient…too deep…make patient suffer for no reasons.
    Romerz is still wondering…who is monsterball?


  53. Y C Chai
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 11:12:19

    I spent my childhood years (about 16 years) in a rubber estate where the majority is Indian and quite a number of Malays. There are only a handful of Chinese family, which i belongs to one of them. Its a full of fun and adventure i would say even though lacking in a lot of facilities and enjoyment of the city folks. Racial polarisation is minimum then, what more when we are too young and lacking in exposure to understand what racial discrimination is.

    I have been to Hindu Temple every year without failed during those religious festivals, watched Tamil movie once a month, playing football bare footed, and most importantly our “play ground” is 3,000 acres ( the size of the estate plantation filed) as compare what the modern days kids has (probably 22′ x 75′). I had even slept at my Malay friend’s house, touched a Keris, plucking rambutans & duku langsat etc. Such was the happy moment where racial discrimination seems completely irrelevant.

    Being poor may not necessarily less happy. At least i enjoyed my childhood days and have picked up Bahasa, Manadarin and Tamil plus a couple of Chinese dialects, thanks to the environment i was brought up. I have also completed my tertiary education though not in a top notch institution.

    But now, i feel disgusted at the degree of discrimination and corruption that exist in our country. It’s a sheer waste of time to elaborate them in detail here.

    My opinion is racial polarisation is created by dirty politician who used them a tool to maintain their power base. What need to done is focus our effort to combat “class devide” between the have and have-not. It may sound a little similar to socialism but simply means to narrow the income disparity among Malaysian. It will be disaster if let unchecked because it will be further use by those in power to create greater inter-ethnic conflicts. The result may be worse than just racial discrimination alone. The poor one will not harbour any ill feeling agianst anyone of different race unless provoke or instigate by outside influence as thy are too preoccupied with their daily livelihood.


  54. monsterball
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 11:52:38

    It shows .we old folks know the real Malaysians……more than those…so call…lucky rich urban Malaysians.
    Y C Chai experiences are priceless and rich.
    Hope those who read..be convinced….how dirty UMNO and BN are…..playing race and religion …dirty…filthy politics …to enrich themselves….making Malaysians as slaves….no voice…..no power.
    Now is Judgment Day for UMNO and BN.
    Malaysia will be free from bondage..threats and bullies…very soon..from those evil politicians.
    And I like to add…..without Dollah….such things cannot happen.
    History will judge him..as the greatest UMNO man..or the worst PM.
    On this…..I will say…he is both.
    Can one imagine..if it is Najib as PM…we will get so much dirt and worms duck out??
    Now…..it is up to all Malaysians….unite and stop the rot……before UMNO bankcupt our country.


  55. A true Malaysian
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 12:21:46

    Anak Malaysia & Muda,

    It is really heart warming to read your comments. They are infact ‘consolation’ to me that not only non-Malays fall victim, but also Malays at large. This perhaps was the main reason for political tsunami that all of us witnessed in the 12th GE.

    I agree absolutely with your statement :-

    “I hope that all of you non-malay or non-bumi have realized by now that we are not so difference after all.”

    I can’t say for other Chinese Malaysian as to your view that ‘Chinese are much smarter in politics….calculative…..vote BN and use DAP as threat blaa, blaa, blaa…’. All I can say that all the while, I am consistent with my ‘vote’.

    I would say that Chinese, by nature, are more of ‘economical people’ where they can survive any where in the world as they can easily adaptable to the surrounding they live in (with the exception of Justin Choo, and maybe myself, haha). In a way, this make us hard working, thrifty and to a certain extent, calculative. More so in the discriminatory environment of Malaysia, survival count.

    So, it is good to have you guys say out how you look at non-Malay or non-Muslim so as to forge ‘real’ understanding among us, Malaysian. In this sense, I believe more Malay should join DAP, which many Malay regard it as a Chinese party due to the influence of BN propaganda. I believe they are not racists.

    Many of the non-Malay in BN are in fact ‘forgot’ on the fundamentals…That is why until now, they still put hope on UMNO. In fact, those in UMNO and BN have lost their ‘common sense’.


  56. Taikohtai
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 13:53:23

    G’day Dr Hsu,

    Greetings from Brisbane. Found your blog today and I am impressed by your articles. Do keep it up.

    Unlike most of your readers who chose to stay in Malaysia after an overseas graduation, I have called Australia my home since 1995. Despite working as a bank manager for 15 years in KL, I found that I could not afford a decent overseas university education for my children without sacrificing my wife and my EPF, house and savings (pl don’t blame me since even your education minister also has no faith in Malaysian unis).
    We have no regrets with our move although all our siblings are still in Malaysia or Singapore. Despite working full time, I continue to read about news in Malaysia and constantly takes snipes at the BN gomen. Having met DSAI and Mr Lim Kit Siang a few years ago, I continue to support their aspirations. In fact, I vividly remember telling Mr Lim that I hope to see DSAI (who was still in gaol then) as PM one day, and his son LGE as deputy. He turned to me and said why don’t I make it happen?



  57. Dr Hsu
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 14:05:38

    Taikohtai, those who chose to go overseas are forced to do so by circumstances.

    Please read my earlier articles on this topic:


    and https://hsudarren.wordpress.com/2008/05/14/racial-politics-and-brain-drain/


  58. A true Malaysian
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 15:21:48

    Taikohtai, old fart and overseas Malaysian,

    After reading all your comments, I feel that most of you still ‘miss’ Malaysia, one way or other. Afterall, Malaysia is still your birthplace and homeland.

    If not because of the unfair policies, absence of meritocracy and accountability, you guys would still prefer to call Malaysia your home.

    No doubt some of you may give up totally on Malaysia, I still think you guys can still contribute one way or another, to make Malaysia back to its track again. Your capital, experience, expertise and opinions are very valuable to us, who still stay put in Malaysia. So, don’t give up hope on us.

    There is still hope for a brighter Malaysia.


  59. monsterball
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 18:42:16

    Yes….True Malaysia. writer….this old fart…Taikohtai..have no balls…to defend his rights…and now talking cock. Yes…this sour grape…good for nothing is missing Malaysia.
    YES…..he will return back….when conditions benefits him. He is a classic example of a Malaysian…not a true Malaysian.


  60. monsterball
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 18:44:55

    And Doc….don’t be fooled…that all ran away..are rich buggers.
    Many are crooks..running away from police arrests.


  61. A true Malaysian
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 23:32:43

    Mr. monsterball,

    Give them chance lah. They were not running away, I guess, just fed-up.

    If one persuade someone to do good until mouth dry, saliva habis, sure will fed-up one. Afterall, all people have rights to seek greener pastures.

    So, if Malaysia can turn into a greener pastures for them, why not? I welcome them back home.

    What Buddha says, forgive and forget, lets move on.


  62. romerz
    Aug 06, 2008 @ 23:45:34

    Dear monsterball,

    Please help us keep those who have not left yet a chance. For every person willing to stay and ‘fight’ is a potential ally for the cause.

    Even those who had left can still come back and do their bit.

    I have a very good friend and classmate from Penang who is a neurosurgeon who has a PR from Singapore but yet he returned recently to do his bit for society.

    Please monsterball, give them a chance. You are right but unfortunately not everyone is as righteous or brave as you are.


  63. Anak Malaysia
    Aug 07, 2008 @ 04:01:11

    True Malaysian,

    When I said the Chinese are calculative, I made no reference to the so-called fact that most Chinese people (not all) are “hardworking, thrifty and have a very high entrepreneur spirit driven by their determination to succeed”. I can see this with my own eyes. For those who are good in academics, they will pursue their education, come back, worked, gained experience and opened their own businesses. For those who are not so brilliant in academics, they will become an apprentice of any trades, worked, learned and in the end also opened their own businesses. There is no time wasted. Worked hard and also enjoys so hard as well hehehe…. Just joking, ok? Admittedly, this indomitable spirit of theirs are very much admirable. This is a fact and I’m not going to deny anything on this.

    When I said calculative, I’m referring to all of those never ending complaints about being marginalized, about being treated as a second class citizens and so on when it’s very much obvious that they are the among the one whose hands are also tainted with voting this very corrupted government into power. I’m referring this to the specific 2004 GE which BN swept into powers with overwhelming majorities. That is exactly my reference on being calculative.

    We can talked, we can complained and we can argued for eternity, but, unless we choose to do something about it, nothing is gonna changed. Everything will just remains the same. There are NO TWO ways about it. Why keep voting for this government when all of you are obvious on the discriminatory nature of it? This is no illusions. It has been happening for the past 30 years and what makes all of you think that it wont last for another 30 years? This is also the plain truth who can only be understand by a simple man….

    That’s why, the sooner all of us realize in this simple truth, the better it is for us and for the country. As far as I’m concerned, I’m very much clear on the route that need to be taken. Just move forward and avoid all of those bullshits which I’ll meet along the way.

    I’ve got no worries. Why should I. Life is but a journey. And in this journey, the greatest mistake a man can make, is to be afraid of making one! It’s not about making the right or the wrong choice, it’s all about being indecisive!


  64. Anak Malaysia
    Aug 07, 2008 @ 04:13:37

    Oh yeah… there is one more thing that I forgot to add! Regarding Anwar and PR, the truth is that I’ve got my own fears and I’ve got my own doubts about them. They might deliver and they might not, or worst still, they might be worst than UMNO and BN.

    But I also realized in my simple way these are mere possibilities. It might happened and it might not. But I couldn’t care less because the ultimate truth is, under UMNO led BN, life sure sucks! BIGTIME! Call me what you want, but given the only two choices that I’ve got at the moment, I would definitely put my bet in PR. Why? The answer is quite simple. I choose to be in a “what if sure” die situation rather than be in a “SURE DIE ONE” situation! About this, I’ve got not illusions…


  65. A true Malaysian
    Aug 07, 2008 @ 07:52:25

    Anak Malaysia,

    We actually have the same aspiration. Hope PR can lead Malaysia to a just, fair and equitable country, and put meritocracy and accountability back to our beloved homeland.


  66. Taikohtai
    Aug 07, 2008 @ 10:55:20

    An outburst that those who have migrated have no balls is understandable but uncalled for. We don’t know each other enough yet, so lets not jump to conclusions and start generalising. Afterall, I believe our forefathers did the same thing when they migrated from China, Java, India, etc before. They also got no balls too? So we are all descendents of eunuchs or something worse?
    Jokes aside, I like to consider myself as a free spirit who is lucky enough to exercise my options. I am citizen of the world, rather than tied down to a motherland that selectively disowns and discriminates against its own. No, the world is also far from perfect but I rather debate on human rights and defend your freedom of speech.
    Further more, I can say with pride I have done my utmost for my kids as they have been given the opportunity to realise their full potential and be true professionals in their respective fields They can also serve other needy people here and overseas and nothing will give me more satisfaction than seeing my son one day serving citizens of a down trodden third world country with his dental skills.
    Perhaps there are not too few Malaysians who wish that their forefathers had done the same and migrated further south in the olden days, no?


  67. monsterball
    Aug 07, 2008 @ 15:58:09

    Taikohtai…Glad you remember…your forefathers migrated to Malaya…made it rich…and made Malaysia…your home.
    Glad you know..he was a Malayan.
    Because of your forefather and thousands more…Malaysian was having 32% Chinese…as Malaysians with equal voice to Malays.
    Don’t tell me with your “taikohtai” nick..meaning “powerful Chinese lord”…have no balls to help your own country and run away?
    Who cares ..you are a great father.
    All crooks are great parents too.
    Yes..stop talking politics of Malaysia….if you are not man enough…..to help fight… the devils.
    Yes go do charity work..to cleanse your own sins…and stop bragging you are a “taikohtai”


  68. monsterball
    Aug 07, 2008 @ 16:04:37

    So….you now call yourself….
    citizen of the world.
    What a braggart you are…with your ‘taikohtai”…nick.
    Trying to find suckers from the whole..to make big money?
    Yes..you better do more charity work.
    Citizen of the world…my foot!!
    “Taikohtai”…my arse!!!


  69. monsterball
    Aug 07, 2008 @ 16:49:59

    “tasikohtai” also mean hand phone.
    Are you a product for sale….maybe backside..now in great demand……..hahahahahahaha


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